You Can Love Your Post-explant Breasts Even When You Don’t Like Their Look

Written By: Amanda Savage Brown, Ph.D., LCSW

Recently in my private Facebook group, Breast Implant Through Explant (BRITE) Inner Companions, a member asked how to love your post-explant breasts when you don’t like how they look. As both a woman who explanted and an Acceptance & Commitment Therapy practitioner, I know this is an important topic to be open about. Breast implants impact women’s health and wellbeing in many ways and are not lifetime devices. Each year, more women are choosing to remove and not replace their implants. After explant, some women are thrilled with how their breasts look. Others are not. I’m in this latter group.

I don’t like how my post-explant breasts look

My post-explant breasts’ aesthetics are very unlike the established ideal for how a breast should appear. Though I anticipated wearing plunging necklines and proudly NOT having implants, it’s been 3.5 years since I explanted and my cleavage still looks like a partially deflated air mattress. Not only do I completely lack an upper pole, but I’m pretty sure I can still see where my implants previously rested atop my muscles. My body also decided to store fat directly in front of my armpits. (It never did this prior to explant.) My left breast, sadly, is permanently creased.

To say this crease disappoints me is an understatement. In my forthcoming self-help book for women whose lives have been impacted by breast implants, I share my thoughts and feelings about the crease. I describe how they pushed me around after explant. And I share how I used Acceptance & Commitment Therapy to respond differently. (You can keep “abreast” of my forthcoming book here.)

But I do love my post-explant breasts

woman with hands resting over her breasts to show one way you love your post-explant breasts

You might expect me to write about how I feel so much better after explant, or how my scars honor my strength, or to go on and on about how much I love their warmth, softness, and much more natural appearance. I could also say how much I love hugging other people without freezing cold silicone gel between us and how fantastic it is to have breasts that aren’t painfully trapped in thick, calcified scar capsules. Perhaps you expect me to say that I love what my post-explant breasts teach me about self-acceptance. While ALL those things are true, none of them make me a woman who loves my post-explant breasts.

I am a woman who loves my post-explant breasts by acting lovingly toward them, not because of my regard toward them. Acting lovingly toward them is completely independent of what they give (or fail to give) me. How could I make my love toward them be conditional upon their appearance? They didn’t sign up for any of this!

But they soldiered on, making room for two oversized and super toxic uninvited guests. They worked 24/7 to separate themselves, and me, from the chemicals that inevitably and immediately begin leeching from implant shells. They even held it together when one of my gummy bear implants silently ruptured. And, to their immense credit, they’ve done their level best to heal after everything they endured.

Ways I act lovingly toward my post-explant breasts

Despite the crease and other disappointing features, I choose to love my post-explant breasts. I don’t talk badly about them. (Go back to the earlier paragraph where I reveal how my post-explant breasts appear and notice how the language is nonjudgmental and descriptive.) Nor do I talk badly about myself because of the way they appear. When a health professional examines me, I don’t lower my eyes or make apologies for their appearance. I catch when my mind tries to encourage me to “fix” them. Buying into those ideas will lead me to put my body and breasts through more surgical trauma, all in pursuit of patriarchal beauty standards. (I make that decision for my body without any judgment of others who choose differently for theirs.)

Instead of more surgeries, I protect my breasts and keep strong boundaries around them. I buy them comfortable bras and surround them in only the smoothest and softest fabrics. I gently check them each month for new lumps or bumps. And I let them receive tenderness from my partner.

Acceptance and change

I know that because of how the human mind works, I will never love the way my breasts look. I don’t spend one second of my life trying to convince myself that I’m ok with their appearance. I’m not.

But I DO accept the reality that, for many complex reasons, I surgically altered my naturally small breasts. Their current appearance reflects two things: 1. a decision I made while under the influence of toxic breast-related messaging, and 2. my ongoing choice to not do additional procedures. I want to let them be.

Accepting these things doesn’t mean I like or tolerate them. It means I allow my thoughts and feelings about my breasts to come, stay, and go on their own.

Acceptance also frees me to change. It allows me to be there for myself unlike any other time in my life. For me, this looks like giving myself support, kindness, and compassion, inside and out. It means validating my experience and allowing my disappointment. It means spending time taking care of my body and mind on my terms, not society’s.

Though my mind may never like how my post-explants breasts appear, acceptance frees me to be loving toward them. I feel it’s the least I can do after all we’ve been through.


Amanda Savage Brown, PhD, LCSW, is a self-acceptance counselor & coach. She uses the research-backed approaches from Acceptance and Commitment Therapy to help adults reclaim their wellbeing from adverse childhood experiences, other trauma, grief, loss, and people-pleasing through mindful self-acceptance and values-guided change. 

She explanted in 2018, recovered from breast implant illness, and specializes in helping women find their way before, during, and after breast implant removal.

She is the author of Busting Free, the award-winning self-help book for women whose life journey includes breast implants.

Learn more at and follow her on FB and IG @dr.amandasavagebrown

Disclaimer: All information shared in these blog posts is educational and should not be used as a substitute for therapy or taken as therapeutic guidance.

© 2023 Amanda Savage Brown


    • Karen, I am so glad it’s helpful to you. These journeys are hard AND they offer us a chance to finally learn to live with true self-acceptance. Please keep me posted about your explant and healing, both physically and inwardly.
      Very warmly

  1. Oh beautiful Amanda, thank you for sharing so vulnerably. I’m so emotional right now and allowing the tears to flow freely. From your descriptive words I thought you were describing my post explant breasts. It’s truly difficult to embrace them and even though I desire to be in a romantic relationship again one day the thought of a man looking at them horrifies me. And I wonder if I’ll just remain single. I appreciate you so much. You are so authentic and truly a loving soul.
    Thank you, Marcia

    • Hi Marcia,
      Your comment also brought tears to my eyes. I am glad the article is helpful, perhaps cathartic to you in some way. Also, please know that if you are very early in your post-explant days, things will change aesthetically. Either way, being loving is an action that’s under your control and something you can do for yourself today. Thanks for sharing with me.

  2. Thanks for being so honest.
    It brought tears to my eyes reading it. Hopefully after I find my PS and explant I will have some of your acceptance.
    I am assuming you didnt do a lift. Thats the way I am leaning.


    • Hi there Lisa,
      Thanks for connecting. For a few different reasons, I did not do a lift (or any additional surgeries). There are things you can do NOW to forge and grow a self-acceptance practice. Some of them are mentioned in the article, but I offer a clear roadmap to building a self-acceptance practice in Busting Free (which will be out in August!). I hope it helps. Stay in touch!

      • Hi
        I am looking forward to your book. I just scheduled for September 15th.
        Nervous and scared about surgery, pain, healing n outcome. Praying I will feel better than I do now.
        Thanks for your help 🙂

  3. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. I explanted 2 years ago, and I feel very similar. It’s hard to accept them now, but I didn’t like how they looked pre-implants after breast-feeding 2 babies. I look at them, know what they’ve been through, and yes, buy better bras to lift them up when I feel like it, and keep going.

    • It can be so helpful to honor all that they’ve been through. And, indeed, keep going and living a full life no matter how they appear!


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